i feel ya buddy..
headaches… those darn things..
i can’t remember the first time i had a headache. i do remember though that i started having regular headaches in middle school. yes, not regular menstrual periods but regular headaches. other girls would start having their monthly period in middle school, but i… started having my headaches. headaches and i are like bound together forever, but with strong hatred.
i went to middle school on guam. (if you don’t know where or what that is, it’s a u.s. territory, an island in the pacific ocean near the equator – which means it’s summer all year long, coconut trees, aqua blue beach, etc. if you were to draw a line from manila, philippines to west and another line from papa new guinea or west Australia to north, the meeting point is about where guam is located). so whenever my middle school went through fire drills or bomb scares, we would go outside against the fence that indicated the school property. sometimes it took about 30 minutes but some other times it took about an hour or more. standing around in the stinging hot sun started to give me headaches: dehydration.. even if i didn’t feel like i was dehydrated.
at the age of 26, i suffer from headaches from various reasons. AND I HATE IT! i think i spend a good 1/5~1/6 of the year leashed to headaches. i don’t think i complain a lot, but if i have one thing to complain about, it’ll be about my headaches. you would know by looking at my face: an ugly crinkled face with squinty eyes. if you were to hang out with me frequently, you’d get tired of hearing from me that i have a headache.
….and of course i’m writing about headache today because i have one right now. what started as a tension headache at the back of my head around bedtime last night is now in the front of my head and it’s putting some pressure on my eyes. i think this is one of the top 5 ‘worst headaches’ on my list. what sucks about this headache is that i also picked up cough from some unknown person/source yesterday and every time i cough, i feel like someone is banging my head with a hammer.. it’s MISERABLE…. i have important things to do today but i can’t seem to focus on them due to pain.. i’d like to sleep it off but i’m not sleepy… so with my desire to be productive, i’ve decided to blog about my feelings since my future is not dependent on this post as opposed to a graduate admission essay that will be judged by some educated people.
my pastor said today that we don’t really see or experience miracles, when compared to the times of the old testament and new testament, perhaps because we don’t ask for it. he also suggested that we ask God for miracles and see His name being glorified through it this year. God.. i asked that you would take away my headache out of my head for good as if you’re pulling a tree and all of its small roots out of the ground. i never want to experience headaches again.. i feel like a slave to headaches.. i feel bound to them and can’t do anything whenever headaches take over me. God, free me from 13 years of slavery!
January 2, 2011 at 8:35 pm
aww heej hope you feel better! You should get your headaches checked out. The headache in the front of your head sounds like a sinus headache though
You should take sinus medicine 
January 3, 2011 at 9:07 am
yes, in Jesus name, be free!!
January 11, 2011 at 1:29 pm
aww, i didn’t know you suffered from headaches! [and i didn't know you were from guam!] there’s a lot i don’t know about you, heej, but i’d like to know.
you are so sweet.
thinking about you and praying your headaches will be a thing of the past!
February 18, 2011 at 3:30 am
White Flower Oil (embrocation.50webs.com) was introduced to me by my mother. During one of my headaches, she gave me this tiny bottle of oil and told me to massage it on my temples and forehead. Amazingly, it worked! Somehow the oil penetrates into the affected area and relieves the pain.